Doki Doki Literature Club! The Original Game Voice Dubbed
radiantumbreon for Monika
She always has a calm, gentle expression and is portrayed as mature and hard-working.
Despite Monika's upbeat attitude in the Literature Club, it becomes increasingly obvious that she is actually sad and lonely, as a result of being aware that her whole world is just a simulation; a simulation in which she can't even achieve what is considered "happiness" (i.e. having her route completed). She is fixated on obtaining the love of player because they're the only "real" thing in her life. Monika's actions are also motivated by her desire to escape the torture she endures whenever someone quits the game, as when that happens Monika is trapped in a hellish void of noise, lights, colors, and screams, unable to move or even think. This is mentioned during Monika's Talk in Act 3.
"I was thinking about Sayori earlier..."
"I still wish I could have handled that whole thing a little more tactfully."
"You're not still hung up over it, right?"
"...Oh, my gosh, I can't believe I just said that."
"That pun was completely unintentional, I swear!"
"But anyway..."
"I know how much you cared about her, so it only feels right for me to share her last moments with you."
"You know how Sayori is really clumsy?"
"Well, she kind of messed up the whole hanging thing..."
"You're supposed to jump from high enough that the rope snaps your neck, making it quick and painless." "But she just used a chair, meaning she kind of just left herself to slowly asphyxiate. "But a few seconds in, she must have changed her mind or something..."
"Because she started clawing at the rope, trying to free herself."
"She must have kept at it all the way until she lost consciousness."
"That's why her fingertips were all bloody, anyway." "Come to think of it, it was probably less 'changing her mind' and more just her survival instincts kicking in." "So you can't really fault her for that." "It's easier to think that she probably wouldn't have changed her mind anyway, right?"
"It's not healthy to think about the things you could have done differently."
"So just remember that even though you could have saved her, it's technically not your fault she killed herself." "I may have exacerbated it a little bit, but Sayori was already mentally ill."
"Still, though..."
"I wonder how things would be if you and I just started dating from the get-go?"
"I guess we'd all still be in the clubroom, writing poems and having fun together."
"But what's the point when none of it is even real?"
"I mean, it's the same ending either way, right?" "The two of us, happily together..."
"There's no reason to ask for any more than that.""
I was just pointlessly musing - I'm really as happy as I could be right now."
